My Love has been lost and I do not know what to do. In her place there is someone, who looks like her, sounds like her, sometimes acts like her, and could be her twin, but it’s not quite her. I do not know if she’ll ever be found, all I can do is let time run its course and maybe some day she will return. In honor of my love I will watch over the one in her place, and do what I can to help the woman I knew and loved be found again.

I get confused sometimes and mix the two of them up, and then think that I have found her, but I feel she will be lost for at least a while longer. What will come of this I do not know, all I can do is remind myself is it is out of my control, and even though I generally don’t like to admit it, but this is in the hands of fate right now.

I am thankful for a few things even if she never returns to me. We both grew a lot during our time together and helped each-other surpass many walls in our ways, which is good. I will always think of this as one of the strongest loves I have ever felt, if not the strongest. I will always remember that tree at Raven Rock, and the symbol,  even though I was afraid of losing you.

What you (my love) may not know, is that you are not the only one who is lost, I have been lost in an abyss that has existed in my own being for a few months now, I realized this as I rode around in the (fixed) steel chariot. I just drove and drove. I did not know where I was going, nor did I care. I saw a lot of society during this drive and I was able to take a step back, and gain some perspective on what was happening. You are lost, I am lost, and those to facts mean if we are ever to rejoin, we must both be find ourselves, and possibly each-other. What exactly does this mean? I do not completely know, but all I do know is it will take effort on both of our parts, and I hope you are willing.

We both have long paths ahead of us, whether or not they’ll intertwine once more we can never know, but it is possible and I will find solace in that. Que Sera Sera

This isn’t good bye, more of a see you later.
12/13/2007-3/21/2008 maybe again, maybe not, but it did exist once and the memories will always be there.

I may add more later I do no know. Wish me luck, as this part of my journey seems like it may be the hardest yet.